We recently moved to a new home; one with a large yard and many plants, shrubs and perennials. I have never gardened. In fact, the past few years I didn’t even buy one potted plant because it felt like one more responsibility for me to care for. ......
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Have you experienced times in your life when the stars seem to align and life starts unfolding like the clothes falling out of a laundry basket? Where you thought you knew how life was going to go, but all of a sudden there’s a detour onto an exciting new path? ......
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"Dream as if you'll live forever
Live as is you will not see tomorrow"
~Jared J
I can honestly say, 3 years ago, I wasn't able to live out this quote. With my health circumstances, I found myself worrying a lot about my future. Wondering how many years of living I had left......
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Here I sit, at my writing desk, while staring out the second-story window into our backyard.
I am home; in my writing room.
Next to me is the new bookshelf I found. Arranged on the shelves.....
Here I sit on the floor in my living room, trying to process the past 20 years, trying to grasp order and structure to the events in my life. I’m surrounded by my computer, personal journals, index cards, sticky notes, and my favorite felt tip pens in probably 15 different colors. The scenes are scattered about with themes and threads weaving over and through the 50,000 words I’ve written.
I stop to wonder why I’m always drawn to working at the kitchen table or in this, the adjoining living room.
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Yesterday I renewed my driver's license and finally got my Real ID.
Last night I showed it to Brielle. She looked at the picture and said:
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When we are deep in grief, it's hard to do much else. Writing has been a way for me to process, especially the hardest of feelings and moments. I hope this short piece is a reminder that it's okay and necessary to grieve in your own way.
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What was I thinking? A road trip through multiple states over two weeks with my parents and daughter. Quickly I learned with proper planning and research this would be a magical experience for us all.
Sometimes life is really hard.
I'm not referring to the hard where you oversleep and are late for work.
But instead, the hard where it feels impossible to move.
"You're supposed to listen to your Mom on Mother's Day" This may have been an exact quote from me yesterday.
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I came across this memory today, from April 2020. The days when most all of us were quarantined to home. When so much was unknown in each of our lives.
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I never thought we'd be taking Brielle to Hawaii.
But
I also never thought I'd be living with metastatic breast cancer.
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11/10/09 made me a stronger person.
13 years ago today was when I picked up that phone call.
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